Learning to Play
My memories
of being a child are of being an observer – of watching my
siblings play. I also remember being more interested in sitting around with the
adults and listening to the conversation. My Mum used to say I had an “old head
on young shoulders”. I learned to be responsible from a young age as the eldest of five siblings and have few memories of playing. These patterns of
response became my default in many situations throughout life.
In the years I descended into chronic pain my world
closed down, fear dominated and openness and curiosity departed. Eventually I
stumbled across the Alexander Technique via yoga. I knew nothing about the
Technique, but at the first workshop I attended realised I had found something
profoundly different to that which I had experienced to date. My body
experienced a more connected sense of moving, a possibility for opening out of
the contracted state I found myself in.
Over a period of two years I attended workshops and
lessons and learnt to explore the unknown – the use and parts of my self that I had not explored or had suppressed earlier in life. In a safe environment and with the support of
skilled teachers, my body began to change and open, I began to be able to move
with more clarity and confidence. Through gentle explorations my mind also opened
to the impact of my thoughts and beliefs on my movement and responses to life. I
began to experience a greater openness to a new range of possibilities.
After two years, I wanted to deepen the enquiry and so
enrolled in a four year teaching program. I loved it, I loved being in such a
creative environment with wonderful teachers and students from across the
globe, exploring and learning to express ourselves in a more embodied way through
voice, music and movement. I became more curious, more adventurous, laughing and enjoying life more.
Earlier this year I had great fun exploring
developmental movement[i]
with a friend and fellow teacher. Each week, we explored moving in a variety of
ways and did a series of workshops looking at and exploring rolling from front
to back and back again in the way a baby does. This felt so good and we often
ended by rolling the entire length of the room over and over in the way you might
remember rolling down hills as children. I had fun, felt freer (sometimes dizzy) and excited at
how far I had come.
In the time since I began training I have also had the
wonderful experience of becoming a grandparent to three energetic, wonderful children. This has given me a new avenue to see through them how I started in
life - open, receptive, curious, easily poised and balanced. I am very happy
to be able now to sit on the floor and play with them. I enjoy taking them to
the park regularly and learning from their lack of fear as they explore climbing frames and tumble on monkey bars.
My four year old grandson loves nothing more than to
jump at or on me from a height or a distance. In the past I have responded by
saying, no and shrinking away from his exuberance. Now I am more available to
respond creatively, to use his well coordinated and
elastic energy to explore a more enjoyable interaction. A few weeks ago as I
was sitting playing on the floor he suddenly ran from across the room and
jumped on me. I caught him laughing and rolled over and over with him, much to
our joint delight.
Somatic[ii]
educational practices support us to explore new process-oriented ways to
achieve our ‘end’, our wants, our needs. They enable us to widen our movement
and response repertoire, developing a more integrated level of coordination and
well-being. For many of us they invite us to be more playful, more curious, to
explore rather than ‘try’ or ‘try harder’ or ‘do it perfectly’ which often serves
only to tighten us. The Alexander
Technique provides us with a set of skills and principles to apply to whatever
arises, to have a greater understanding of our habitual ways of responding, to
inhibit the old pathway and develop the capacity to choose a response, the greatest freedom of all.
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Beginning March 2018 Anne will hold workshops exploring the application of the Alexander Technique to a range of areas including everyday movement, yoga, dance, the voice and breath. To express interest you
can email: anne_carroll@smartchat.net.au
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